Is there an end to put myself out of this misery? I need to get away. From all. To a place where no one knows my name.

I sit here physically in the office.
Mentally, psychologically, emotionally and socially I'm alone.
I've hit such an all time low that no one knows where I am. I am sucked into my own world of darkness alone.

US.
Every week, I wonder. why is it that i am confused over us? what went wrong between us? undeniably, we are still unable to reconcile our diferences. i seem to be needy and emotional to you. i don't deny that i have been for the past few months. But i am only human. we keep saying that we will try and try. will our tries ever be enough?

YOU peeps
I'm shocked and surprised at the turn of events. I don't blame. I just still wonder why. Is it me? What did I do? Overnight, the place I dwell at for 5 days a week has turned cold and empty.

YOU
Thank you for being there. My little glimpse of light. My loyal royal servant. Although no one knows that you have been all this time here for me. I really appreciate it. Shallow people will never ever understand that there is something so pure between us. Without you, I wouldnt have managed to be strong like now. Your advice is like a difficult pill to swallow but it is because of a person such as you in this earth that I am still able to hang on.

Overnight, i feel i've lost everything. the glass is neither half empty nor half full. it's empty. I'm alone for now.

Cheers to me have a drunk night. I am so looking forward to it. Trust me.

This came in the e-mail. Considered reposted right? Yuk Yuk...

-----------------MAY BABY -----------------
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and
highly motivat ed . Sharp thoughts. Easily angered.
Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings.
Beautiful phys ica lly and mentally. Firm Standpoint.
Need s no motivation. Shy towards oppisite sex.
Easily consol ed . Systematic (left brain). Loves to
dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding.
Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good
imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves
literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike
being at home. Restless. Not having many children.
Hardworking. High spirited. If you repost this in the
next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone
you do not speak to much in the next 4 days.


---------------NOVEMBER BABY --------------------

Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and
dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun.
Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards
your inner and outer beauty and independent
personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional
and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people
easily and very social in a group. Fearless and
independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a
crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the
greatest men are born in this month. If you ever
begin a relationship with someone from this month,
hold on to them because their one of a kind. repost
in 5 mins & you will excell in a major event coming
up sometime this month.

Lucky Yap Chin Chin - the Japanese Spaniel 1987 - 2003

YOU

You are always in my heart...

You were one of the best things I ever had in my life...

You were my best friend when I was young...with me from Primary One to the end of varsity....

I remember how you came into my life .. how Daddy's eyes gleamed when my eyes sparkled at the sight of you...

I remember how Nana and I used to fight over you...

I remember your sister Whopper...

I remember hugging your fur when I was happy or upset...

I remember how you could go out on your own and return on your own..

I remember you barking for us to let you in when the door was not open..

I remember your friend, the temple dog, Ronnie..

I remember your girl friend, Princess..

I remember how Catherine, Adeline and Andrea used to fuss over you..

I was always proud of you...

I remember how you ate my breakfast out of my hand in the mornings while I snoozed on the sofa..

I remember how you were so smart, knowing how to "sit" and "shake hands" and "lick lick"

I remember your bushy tail..

I remember cutting your fur myself countless of times..

I remember your patience when I cut, wash and dry your fur....

I remember how you never once tried to bit me even though I removed your ticks, fleas and hurt your nails by mistake..

I remember how you were always hit by that car and cursing that damn bloody driver...

I remember how you used to welcome me @ the door..

I remember how I used to miss you badly whenever I stayed out...

I remember how you used to be around me when I was upset...

I remember how you knew when we were home by recognising the sound of daddy's car...

I remember how you never got angry with us even though we would vent it out on you sometimes...

I remember how you departed from us... your eyes closing while my tears were rolling..

I'm proud how you left this world quietly and peacefully without suffering any pain..

At the end of the day, the YAPs are happy that you led a long life with us...

I still think of you often...I wish that wherever you are.. You are always happy.....