Yesterday....Crestfallen
I spent almost the whole of my 24 hours yesterday at home, hiding in my room mostly, on my bed...
I emerged barely from my room to have a cup of cereal for breakfast, visit the clinic downstairs, havin fishball noodles soup for dinner and to watch the 9 o'clock show that you love and have a warm bowl of Rochor Soya Bean Curd..
We barely communicated, save the unpleasant msn conversation that left me mostly in tears...
I questioned myself and our feelings...
I couldn't understand whether we were exchanging words in a fit of anger or you had meant what you had typed.
Nevertheless... to me, if the words you typed were meant to be then I feel consoled because you have finally revealed what you have been hiding from me all along, leading me on..
I'm confused and lost...........
I refuse to trust anyone now or let my tears flow again........
Music will be my companion.........
I am determined to stand up by myself and protect myself from further harm.......
I will curb my emotions and meditate the hatred for myself to become love..
I just want to forget...................
Labels: Crestfallen, Emotions, Love
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